Straight Up

Dear Reader,

I am writing this to reveal part of myself. I have nothing to hide and I'm going to let you in on pieces of me. I am no longer afraid to be vulnerable. As you read this, I ask that you keep an open mind and listen. This is how I feel, it's honest and raw and this is me. 

There is something to be said for the value of honesty. It can hurt and it can heal. I believe I am somewhere caught in the middle ground. I can feel the searing pain and I can feel the wounds closing up. I think back and there have been so many instances where I have felt the same emotions. Do not let the pain I have felt take away from my strength. I've been knocked down and my feelings have been hurt before, but don't forget, I will get back up. Life is full of ups and downs, peaks and valleys, that's just the way it is. There are beginnings and there are ends, both of which I have been afraid of at one point. I like routine and I fear change sometimes, but it just so happens that I don't have entire control over things like that in many instances. Whether it's a new school or moving on from something that no longer deserves your attention, life goes on. 

I have dreams and I have aspirations. I dream of glamorous things and fairytale stories just as much as the next person, but I want greater things. I aspire to inspire, I would like to make a difference in this world. I hope to grow and to further myself as a person, both spiritually and mentally. These goals of mine will be eventually be checked off as "Yes, I did this." Whether it'll be today or tomorrow or maybe even years down the way, I do not know, but I have something else that I plan to do immediately. I am going to appreciate myself, I am going to enjoy my own company. I need to remind myself that I am worthy of more and I am the reason for my happiness. If one respects themselves, others will respect them too. 

I am going to trust myself more. I am smart and I make good choices, I have been taught well by my parents and by other examples to know right from wrong. I will walk with confidence and keep my head up. Anyone who would like to get in the way of this, I dare you to try. You will not succeed. You will not and cannot tear me down. 

 I am stronger than ever. I see things through a new light and my eyes have opened. I see hope and I see new opportunities. I am so close to being a Junior in college and I am proud of myself. I have worked so hard to get where I am today and I have so many people to thank for helping me realize that. This letter is not to be directed at anyone or anything, but to remind myself of everything that I am. Anyone else who needs the reminder, allow me to tell you how beautiful you are. Not your external beauty, but rather all of the components of your personality that make up who you are. Each one is beautiful and each one deserves to be appreciated. Keep that in mind. Beauty is not measured by a boy, it is not measured by a size.  Strength is not measured by how many times you have fallen. Get back up, that will show you your strength.

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Believe me when I say, mind over matter. I am independent, I am strong and I will not let anyone or anything make me feel otherwise. 
Greyfully Yours,